Whole and Loved

Whoa! It has been far too long since my last post here and in between those years, a LOT has happened.

Things I  write on this blog have always been about my private life's experiences if not just about anything else under the sun. But since I haven't posted for a long while, I think I owe my followers and readers (whoever that may be), something. At least I feel like I do.

I remember writing on my post about starting over, saying I am "following Jesus..", and yes, I did, and still do and forever will be, nothing's gonna change no matter how much circumstances have changed. So I left everything and did just that, and then came the next post, asking my self if I am still in pursuit of Christ, I started feeling alone, started to discover things about my self and even had this clear direction, before I left home. I was able to meet people who have led me to knowing my self more but had a hard time on where that would fit with my desire to fully serve God and making an influence in somebody elses life. It was all new for me and I felt uncomfortable in some way and was not comfortable in my own skin. Knowing my self, I just brushed it off and focused why I was where I was, that was the direction I had to take. I just had to finish.

So there I was, flooded with papers to write, assignments to submit, I enjoyed mostly the class other than the requirements (who loves 'em, anyway? right?) and missed most of it and had to find my self starting to work on my papers and assignments after the semester has ended, which made feel like starting the previous and current semester at the same time, and that added to the stress in my work. I was both working and studying at the same time, and partying as well HA!

The discussion I had in class made the direction I was taking even more clearer. Dealing with the stress at work and school, got me out of focus with my personal relationship with God, it was kind of funny tho, I'm reading all these religious stuff from great writers, enjoying and learning from each activity and discussion in class, loving my work, and yet drifting from Christ! I was warned...

But anyway, I'm back, I'm back the rough way...I realized God loves me so much that He didn't want me to pursue something that made me drift away, did I finish my degree? Nope. What happened after the paragraph above? Ask me, and we'll talk.

I'm currently back at home, with family and friends, recuperating, and waiting. And hopefully, will leave before the year ends, WHOLE and LOVED.